Food Blues

I had no idea food was so terrible or difficult until I got pregnant. First trimester is brutal. First, there's the nausea. When you feel sick, the last thing you want to do is eat. But the you have to eat! As soon as your stomach is empty you feel sick and need to eat or you will throw up. So basically you have to be like constantly forcing yourself to eat. Thank goodness for modern medicine though! After suffering through only a week of morning sickness my doctor wrote me a prescription for anti-nausea pills, which have worked amazingly. Other than the hunger problem, I don't feel the morning sickness anymore!

But then there's the major problem: eating. All food tastes, smells, looks, and sounds absolutely disgusting. I have made several meals that I take one bite of and immediately spit it back up because it tastes so revolting. Its getting rather frustrating. At times I am hungry, feeling the need to eat because I am starting to get nauseous, and cannot find a single thing that I can stomach to eat. I feel terrible because I am driving Peter crazy with my constant rejection of all his suggestions. But I really can't help it! I don't have a lot of cravings, but if there ever is something I crave I better eat it because that's the only thing I will actually be able to eat. Too bad these are usually really bad foods. I know during the 1st trimester the baby really needs good nutrition and a balanced diet...but how can I possibly do that if I can't even eat? I am praying that the baby still turns out okay...and that one day I can eat again.